Lonely

I've been longing for a boyfriend recently. I want a boyfriend. But my dream is so far away from me because I want a boyfriend who looks straight but is gay, and plays sports. Is it too much?

Everytime I see a hot guy on the streets, I'll imagine me being his girlfriend. Ya, being his gf, that's all. Having sex doesnt come first. What I really want to have is the feeling of being in love with a macho (or at least a normal) guy who loves me like I'm his girlfriend. Ok, I'm bottom I guess, but I won't make that apparent because I don't feel like embarrassing a guy who doesnt want anyone know that he's gay.

I always imagine, a girl and his bf dining in a high class or plain restaurant, strolling in the malls, hanging out in the park, etc... I'm anxious for that kind of life. I want someone to pick me up after school, someone to ask me out and someone to talk to at night. Be that as it may, I dont really feel lonely because I still have my dear friends and my family. I can't imagine how life would be without them in the future.

A hug from a MAN really feels warm and invulnerable to me. I've never been hugged by anyone before. My hands are always held by some straight guys who treat me as friends, and I feel nothing towards them. I want someone to give warmth and the kind of sensation of...being loved.

Here are some hotties that i got from some websites:

Some hot guys that I love.

I wonder what Chinese wear to beach. A brief?? That's very....sexy.
He looks queer. But no my type.
This computer guy. His pants are unzipped. I wonder who took this photo for him. Must be very excited.
I love the one on the right hand side. Great six packs. I wish I had more of his photos.
I love the one on the right hand side. Isn't he hot? The body, the look and the hair. Perfect model.